What's Your Worst Fear?

What's your worst fear?
What scares you the most?
Bugs, roller coasters, extreme weather?
If only those scared me the most.
My worst fear is myself.
I am scared every single day,
That I'll let it win,
That I will do something horrible to myself.
I am so afraid,
Of the death that lurks inside me,
Trying to grip my neck,
And choke me till my lungs give up.
I am scared that one day,
I won't be able to do it,
That I'll give into the voices.
I'm terrified of ropes, pills, and knives.
Because I KNOW the damage I can do with them.
I'm afraid that one day,
If I'm near one,
I'll take it to my breakable body,
And I won't exist anymore.
I'm not scared of death,
I willingly accept it,
But I'm scared that one day,
I will be the one that commits murder to myself.
I'm scared of myself the most,
Not anything else.