Oh Jenni.....I'm truly sorry it's like the way it is, I wish I could give you a huge hug right now. I just can't imagine..... how hard that would be. This poem was again heart-breaking and in every line there was the most raw emotion wishing for that day where all of this will be in the past, where he can be with you daily.

So proud of you for overcoming the self-destruction, don't let it get the best of you and keep fighting. I loved near the end where you put one line in brackets, that was powerful and extremely emotional because he is your everything...I know that distance must be very painful. He will come home though, whatever it takes. I also want to say happy birthday to Connor and I know, even if you aren't with him, he'll still feel your love. That bond between a mother and son will never be broken even if there are miles apart that should never be.

Incredible poem as always! <3

I'm so sorry Jenni.. I hope you get to see him soon & celebrate even if its not on his real birthday. Loved the Connor squeeze part, I always did that to my dad when I was really little.. there is always so much love in those kinds of hugs! Connor knows you love & miss him, don't forget that. I bet you he wishes he was with his mommy, she's quite the wonderful person. Things can only get better from here. Always thinking of you &hoping for the best.

Girl, it must be the hardest thing in the whole world and I can't tell you that he'll be home soon, just that you must hold on to that hope and stay strong for him, because he needs you and he'll always need you.
You're poems are heartbreaking to read, when you mention Connor, but I know that he can feel you with him and I dearly hope and pray, he'll be with you soon.

Keep fighting, and keep strong, I am so proud of you for getting through the destructiveness, one thing at a time.

I wish I could hug you, and comfort you in some small way.

Love you...and stay strong, no matter how hard it gets

xx

This is so beautiful, and I am truly sorry that this happened to you.