A hidden love for you alone

When we met that day
I remember it all so well
I never thought it'd be this way
Things had gone so swell

I remember our first chat
When you came up to me
I never thought it'd be like that
It seemed so great,you see.

I never thought I'd have feelings
I never knew how it'd end
I never thought we'd say those things
I never thought we'd become such great friends.

We'd hang out all the time
Everyone thought we were dating
Who knew I'd feel so fine
I didn't know a thing

Months past and I liked you more
You never saw it though
I felt like you had closed the door
My feelings for you I wanted to show.

I knew it'd ruin our friendship
If you knew how I really felt
Everything seemed to dip
In regret I have dwelt.

I saw you making out with him that night
My heart seemed to have broken
I knew it wouldn't work after this sight
A word about it I never had spoken.

Seeing it and not saying anything about it killed me
Both inside and out
I was pissed but I hid it so you couldn't see
There was no more doubt.

I knew it'd never work between us
I don't know why I even tried
I wish I had been hit by a bus
I knew she'd miss me if I died.

I am her closest friend
I still love her
I want it all to end
I didn't want something to stir.

I left them alone
Until summer when he forgot
A light had shown
I love her a lot.

I will always be there when she needs me
Even if she doesn't know it
She still cannot see
I loved her and hidden its been kept.

I'm waiting for the right day
T tell her and so she might understand
How long I have felt this way
But until then I mustn't be bland