Do we deserve to be loved?

Everywhere i go you hurt me
being with me you gave me pain
moving away was even more painful
you being and not being is painful
if pain is what i deserve when your there
is the love you deserve when im there?
if you think you deserve love.. and i deserve pain
life could no longer be the same for you and me
something which im afraid of is living beside u i guess
its something which i chose and now its haunting me
hit me kill me do anything you want
painful desires are not what i want

i would save all my life just to be with you
you were my happiness you were me strength
with you around problems felt so light
but now i seem to be the problem to you
why did you leave me at this point
was it something that i lack that you saw in her