Never Letting Go

Lost in thought as I shiver from cold nights
Still trying to wrap my mind around this
It amazes me how sweet love can be
To quickly turn and go unnoticed
I know I've made my share of mistakes
God knows I've tried to grow from them
I always thought our love was strong enough
But our bright light eventually became dim

I know that you still love me
And you're doing what you must to protect your heart
I realize my actions caused this outcome
So in a way I can't blame you for wanting to be apart
Although it's killing me to be alone
I know I'm deserving of this pain
Too many times I took what we had for granted
Always believing our love will never change

My biggest fear is losing you to another
Stuck as I sit and watch you happy with someone else
Knowing that all the smiles and love should be mine
Drowning in loneliness of thoughts to myself
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
How could I have been so stupid?
I'm so lost without you it's unbearable
At this point dating just seems useless

You say I didn't love enough to keep you near
So I have to love you enough to let you go
Selfishly my heart won't allow me to
Unable to grasp the thought but deep down I know
I ran out of options and chances to make things right
Your mind is made up and there's nothing I can do
Praying love will find its way back to me
Because I'm never letting go of you

BY Jeraun Thompkins