From Season to Season

Am I being punished for all the things Ive done right,
when all I did was stay and fight.
Should I have given up long ago and stop all this pain,
I wouldnt be here dealing with the same old shit all over again.
They say things happen for a reason,
but its the same from season to season.

From sadness and pain, to happiness and back again,
its like an endless cycle twisting up my life,
built up emotions and a blood stained knife,
is this what is left of me and my mucked up life,
too much memories and the blood stained knife.

I need a miracle, I need a medic,
I need a doctor, I need a remedy.
I can take this no longer, I just want it to end,
to all I loved and to all I hated my regards I send.