Puppet

by Jenni Marie   Jul 3, 2013


{I know what you're doing.}

You're attempting to push me back under, so that you will win. You think if you jerk me around enough like you're own personal puppet, eventually the strings will snap and I'll lose my focus. You think you can still control everything, don't you?

{You can't.}

I wont let you control me any longer, nor will I allow myself to be thrown around emotionally by the likes of you. You don't hold that power over me anymore. Try with all your might to keep me away from my beautiful boy, you wont succeed. You will {never} succeed. You ought to know me well enough by now to know once I set my mind on something I'm like a dog with a bone. And that's with the lesser, unimportant stuff in life. You really think I will give up THIS particular battle so easily?

{I wont.}

I wont give it up. I wont lose this battle. I will win this battle. You will not keep my son from me, no matter how much you try to do so. You're sly and underhanded and you think if you mess me around enough I'll slip. What is it you hope for? For me to slip back into the throes of self harm? Alcohol, perhaps? For me to allow depression to rule my life once more?

You'd love any of those, wouldn't you? For just the tiniest slip would mean you have ammunition against me once more. Don't get your hopes up, sweetheart. I wont slip. I wont fall. I wont even stumble. I've fought harder battles than overcoming your mendacious nature...and I won every one of them. I'll win again. I always do. And I'll get my son back home with me, where he belongs.

{Just you wait and see.}

*more of a vent than anything.

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  • 11 years ago

    by Piogga

    I think the products of venting are, more than anything, actually very inspiring. It's a great outlet, especially when put into black and white, instead of going out and losing yourself with the demons on your back. I've noticed that there's always hope, there's always conviction, and a growing strength, particularly in the end. This is moving. You keep strong. x

  • 11 years ago

    by WintersAngel

    You are obviously a strong person to be able to push away all those bad thoughts. A very inspirational write, to me that is..

  • 11 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    The passion in your heart here is so strong and expresses all the determination you've ever built up and are still keeping.

    Loved this times a million Jenni! You have friends who support and believe in you, and I know you will not be pushed down by him anymore. You CAN and WILL succeed and if others like him don't think that then they don't know how important this is, and how you are a warrior through and through for people you care for :]

    A strong, emotional write...and like Tara said, vents are good, and sometimes they hold the most powerful, honest words in our poetry. <3

  • 11 years ago

    by Tara Kay

    Vents are good. I admire you're strength and I can see how hard you are fighting, and winning.
    I can't imagine how you feel but I can see that determination in these writes, you know what needs to be done, you've done your bit, you just need to keep strong and know that you can get him back.

    Much power and strength here, and a sadness but the hope and determination is evident.

    Hugs and love.
    xx

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