Behind the fence

I've had a dream of happiness
Feelings of complete bliss
With confusion, I awakened
To find myself in this abyss

Love has brought on chaos
Torture; my imagination
It's torment and struggle everyday
With no reciprocation

Through this battle, this fight
I beg for mercy & protection
I seek victory & triumph
Succeed through the rejection

I want my heart cold and black
To prevent this pain
But to add to my suffering
I even feel ashamed

I try avoiding thoughts of you
Although its inconceivable
It's agony, anguish, distress
To make this reality achievable

But my dream, desires, fantasies
Paint your pictures of perfection
The beautiful vision I perceive
Is a reflection of our connection

I've entered the gates of hell
"Abandon hope all ye who enter here"
I'm hopeless yet I'm hopefull
So my mind is full of fear

I'm here because I care
In hell because I love
It seems ironic, yes
A destruction, undreamed of

You will forever be out of reach
I, forever behind this fence
Because we are unrealistic
Until I nod off and dream again..

Written by Lakeisha Roberts
July 11, 2013