Blame

They say hate is no good to hold on to. It poisons you, strangles you, suffocates you. I know that. And yet...I am still finding it incredibly difficult to let it go.I can't wrap my head around the fact that we used to love each other and now not only are we complete strangers but..we can't even remain civil? We were so in love at one point, did you forget that? We'd have died for each other. And now, now I feel physically sick when I think of you.

I am the first to admit that I have done things I am not proud of. But you, you never admit anything and according to you every ounce of blame lies firmly at my feet. Yes, I've done things and I have said things I deeply regret, but never, not a single time, have I used our son against you in this evil game. Not once, have I refused to allow you to see him. Because I know; that he is innocent. I know these problems are between you and I and he shouldn't be thrust into the middle of them.

I see that clearly, so...

why can't you?