I'm the first to admit: I may not be the best parent in the world.
I may not be able to afford to give you everything that you want and I may not be able to spend as much time with you right now as I wish I could do. I may not do everything that society considers is the 'correct' way to parent or raise a child. I make mistakes. After all, who doesn't? Parenting doesn't come with an instruction manual and you're my only baby. But what you will never lack from me sweetheart, is my love. My support. My encouragement. You will never grow up thinking that I don't want you or that I don't love you more than life itself.
Because even though things aren't going the way I want them to right now because of the disagreements between Daddy and I-I will never stop fighting. Not for you, not ever. Not a single second passes by were I'm not thinking of you; beautiful. I may be doing something else, I may have thoughts about completely different or irrelvant things on my mind but know, always know, that you are always there; in my mind. You always have been.
{You always will be.}
And it's true mummy has had some problems recently because of her own difficulties. And some people may condemn me for letting you go several months ago and asking Daddy to look after you, but I refuse to believe I made the wrong decision. And when you're older I'll explain all of this to you. Because I didn't let you go because I didn't want you, so don't ever think that; not even for a single second. I let you go to daddy because mummy needed to focus on getting herself better so that she could be the best mummy you deserve.
And mummy succeeded, sweetheart. Mummy fought her illness and she struggled with her demons and she came out on the other side of it. And there may be some days where everything seems grey still, where the future looks bleak and there may even be times where she wishes to simply give up. But wishing and doing are two different things and know this: Mummy will {never} give up.
