My Prayer

I don't have that much time to be here
Leaving love ones behind is the hell I fear
I have not yet served my purpose in my life
I have not made life easy or done things right
I ask for forgiveness for the angels to go ahead and sing
For all the confusion and hurt is all I knew what to bring
I am scared about what is going to be
Will i suffer in the fire or be blessed and free
I cant turn back the hands of time
In this case of mine, but no worries cause I will be fine
I was given this life cause fate has chosen my path
I have to accept it and suffer it's wrath
Things are the way the are
Confusion and direction leading me the wrong way by far
I hear whispers from angels from every angle
But yet I can answer to the voice of a stranger
I yell at night and scream during the day
Wishing all this time will just wash away
Clean me out of this struggle I am in
Let me live my life, just let it begin
I can hear cries and conversations
He was to young and good, helping others with no hesitations
He was a angel in disguise
He knew right from wrong, so smart and wise
I was put here in this world for a reason
Is just that at this point I'm lost without even believing
I feel alone in the darkest cloud in the sky
Sense in serenity with nothing to live by
Well i can say I lived what I could live
I had gave what all i could give
I am ready God to be beside your angels in heaven
But I am not ready to leave here if I can only have your blessing.
Amen....