Without you

I woke up today with tears in my eyes and a headache
It took me a minute to remember what was wrong
The other day we were together sitting by the lake
We were so happy and u seemed so strong
U took my hand and said that forever u'll be mine
I took yours and promised u not to ever leave you
U were smiling and I thought that everything was fine
But u were dying in the inside and I had no clue
You woke up everyday and you put a fake smile on your face
But I couldn't see that you were hurting,I was so blind
You took away your own life and now you're gone without a trace
And only god knows what was the reason behind
What made u do this and how could you?I can't stop asking myself why?
you're the one I love the most and without you who am I?
I loved you because you were full of life and a happy guy
You were so sweet and sometimes so shy
But I guess I was wrong I never felt your pain or your sorrow
Underneath your beautiful face,your perfect smile and your hazel eyes
Now I'm all alone and afraid of what could happen tomorrow
And left with a lot of questions and a hundred lies
how can I survive without you it's impossible!
you were my only hope you were my favorite one
it's so hard for me this pain is unbelievable
was it easy for you to take your life with a shotgun?
did you even loved me for real or was it all fake?
but how come when I'm the only one who used to make you smile
what I'm going to do now? this feeling I can't take
why didn't you stay in my life for a while?
I'm here without you and I already miss you my love
I'll live my life just to do the things you wanted to do
and i hope you'll be watching me from above
because now I live for the both os us and I breathe for me and you.