Entering school this year
With scars all over me
Wondering what they'll see
When they see them.
Maybe they'll notice
This girl was truly hurting
Or maybe they'll see
She did have pain inside of her.
My scars speak a lot of words
They say how much words hurt
They amplify how much hopelessness hurts
& the feeling of worthlessness.
My scars are a message
To everyone that hurt me
They DID hurt me
It was so much more than a word
An insult
Or a joke.
It was years of psychological damage
Pain inside of my heart
That I lashed out onto my skin
In the art of a blade.
They'll never understand
How the numbness took over me
& placed red marks across my body
Just so I could feel.
I was always so broken
This is just a reality of it
That maybe I wasn't okay
Maybe there was more behind that smile.
