My only wish for the last 7 years,
has been to be with you.
I have never wanted anything so much in my life,
more than i have wanted you.
last week i thought my luck had changed,
i received texts from you.
to say that you miss me,
and that over the last few years you hadnt been all the nice to me.
i replayed with,
you know that no matter how rude you maybe to me,
i will always stick by you.
and the texts went on from there.
i told him many times just how much he meant/means to me,
but he just says that he has never felt a spark,
yet i am the one that has always be there for him,
thick and thin i am there.
he is the one i will never be able to let go,
we have 7 years of a friendship that i know i cant walk away from.
i know that he says there isnt spark between us on his part,
but for me since day one there has been fireworks,
a full display of colours.
so i really dont know weather to believe that its was his mates that sent the texts,
or weather he did?
maybe hes scared cos my life is so full on,
maybe its the distance.
who really knows?
regardless,
the past 7 years i have been in love with him all that time,
i dont think it will change,
not ever.
sad thing is my boyfriend looks just like him,
so when i look at my boyfriend its like looking at him.
though all the crap he has put me though,
i will still be here for him,
no matter what,
hes has been my only wish.
and one that i will never get.
