An ache in my heart that we could never be,
I've watched you afar and could never say,
Blood on my lips from bites to conceal
"I love you", these words could never be real.
That day I brewed your favorite coffee
The one you've always complimented about.
"Our company hadn't been doing too well, we'll contact you when we're doing better... I'm sorry", you said
Packing my things on my way out.
"Her appearance was a bit too..., that's why I let her go", you said to your friend
I never knew you were like that
My waist may not be a 24,
My body may not be thin,
My face do looks like every other human
With fat beneath the skin.
A face I could see outlined with bones and barely flesh, Chopstick legs in long high heels.
Was that what you liked?
Flat chested model? or a deflated car wheel?
A fire in my brain, burning
Blood stain on my lips, they're hurling.
My heart cried out for my eyes couldn't weep,
Dehydrated and lack of sleep.
Weeks and months, they all passed
This wasn't something that would last.
In the mirror the girl I see,
Wasn't the one who she used to be.
