Final goodbye

I write these words,
As my last breath,
A few minutes last,
Before my death.

I know you'll cry,
And I know you'll scream,
And I know I'll haunt,
Your every dream.

But you don't know,
What I suffered forever,
Every cruel word,
Every lost endeavor.

And every cut,
I gave myself,
Just another problem,
You couldn't help.

Every scar,
Was another lie,
Just another tear,
In my eye.

And I know you didn't like,
When I dressed in black,
You even made me take,
Some of it back.

I'm sorry that I liked it,
I swear I didn't try,
I didn't mean to make you angry,
And I didn't want to lie.

But don't worry,
I'm done with that now,
You can throw it all out,
I don't need it anyhow.

Please don't cry,
I'll see you again,
I promise you,
This isn't the end.

Goodbyes are tough,
I know that's true,
And I'll finish mine off,
With I love you.