So Close, Almost...

I can't seem to move on without you,
I've tried but I don't know what to do.

You're on my mind no matter when, whether day or night,
It feels as though there's a rope around my heart growing tight.

It hurts like a knife right through my heart,
But as if that sounds bad, that's just the start.

It goes deeper and deeper until there's a scar,
But I didn't mean for my liking you to go this far.

At first it was just a little, babyish, crush,
Now when I see you I start to blush.

I didn't mean to cause myself so much pain,
I hope it goes away and the pain no longer remains.

But I don't understand why we can't control love,
It's like a blessing and a curse sent from above.

Why doesn't it go away when we want it to?
Why can't we just say that we're through?

How come we feel more for some than we do others?
Why can we ask these questions but get no answers?

I want to feel good feelings inside,
And I can tell you, before, that I've tried.

But I guess it only comes to those who deserve it most,
I feel I am so close, almost…

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