To look at yourself in the mirror
& feel hideous
Is one of the worst feelings in the world.
To look at the reflection
& make a face of disgust
Just shows how much it hurts to not ever be good enough.
To see yourself as a monster
Without beauty of any sort
Without anything special about yourself
Is heartbreaking.
To doubt compliments
& take them as if they're lies
Because you just feel that ugly.
To look at your face
Staring back at you
Tears streaming
Mascara smudging
The sadness of never feeling beautiful.
To take a knife to the skin that lays over you
Because you just don't see anything good about yourself
Brings up a whole new kind of self hate.
To truly believe the lies
That people speak out
& the voices scream at you
Each and every single day
Torturing you
Until one day you just can't do it anymore
& the lies win your life.
The sad thing is
Others saw you in a way you couldn't
They saw the way you batted your eyelashes
The happiness when something good finally happened
The smile when you actually felt okay
But you're gone
& they wish they would've proved to you
That you are beautiful
That you aren't a monster.
