Substance Of Grief

Oh, how I wish,
Wish you were.
So god damn tired,
Of feeling you disappear.

But you're also holding on,
Holding on pretty tight.
I can feel your aura,
Dream of you in the nights.

I misconstrude my feelings,
Can't say it doesn't hurt anymore.
I remember it clearly,
How my knees hit the floor.

My tears fell hot,
I could barely see.
And all I could whisper,
Is how could you leave me?

And I can't talk about it,
Nobody wants to know.
Know that I'll never understand,
How somebody so precious could go.

So am I wasting my time,
Because apparently your loss is, "age old"
Makes me wonder,
How anybody could be so cold.

So I'm going to take my time,
Stop and keep my feelings locked inside.
It's not like anybody has seen,
The tears I've already cried.

And carry on missing you,
Until I feel I can move on.
Because so much has fell,
Since the moment you've been gone.

08/30/12