Hidden Pain

I'm not sure of where to turn
Or where I should go from here.
I've got nowhere run
Or how to make it disappear.

I just want a day
Where I'd feel normal inside.
Since she slipped away,
I've felt like I died.

She's not coming home
Of which I'm well aware.
But nobody knows how it feels
To breathe without her there.

She was my everything
Before my baby came along.
She still means the world
Even though she's gone.

I know I sound pathetic
But it's important to me.
I feel guilty for barely crying
Since she's been free.

I need a little something,
Maybe just a listening ear.
At one point losing her
Was my greatest fear.

The day it came true
I completely fell apart.
I'm so much like her
Though she had a warmer heart.

I miss her so badly,
More than anybody will ever know.
But I can't run from it
Nor can I let it show.

12 /2/2012