Breathless

They time is supposed to lessen pain
But is it the same if you ignore it?
For years and years,
Just keep it locked up inside.

Because I'm holding up a barrier
Around my feelings for you.
Of when you slipped away
And just left me here.

I'm numb to the core
And missing you immensely.
Nobody will ever,
Ever understand what you meant to me.

You were who I breathed for
Who I wanted to be.
That hasn't changed
Even though you're gone.

I hide from the anger,
Refuse to give in to the hurt.
It's just too much
Way too much to bare.

I know what will happen,
What's to come if I let go.
I've been there before
And don't want to go there again..

Not because I don't miss you
But because I don't want to feel your loss..
The agony..

No, I don't want to breathe again.

12/19/12