Counting Months

It's time that I miss you
Just a little more.
I can honestly say
It feels no different than before.

I visited, lay flowers
And slowly walked away.
I dared not to cry
No, not today.

I don't think I would stop
If I let tears flow.
I knelt down and traced your name
Before I rose to go.

Whats the point in living?
If we're just going to die.
Because I just can't say it,
I cannot say goodbye.

You were of the special kind
Honestly like no other.
You practically raised me,
Were more like a mother.

Nobody knows
That I cry myself to sleep.
You were my friend, my hero
Fond memories I keep.

But your loss was difficult,
So I shy away from the bad.
The years I spent with you
Were the best I ever had.

I know I cannot see you
But I wish you were here.
Have missed you like crazy
Since you disappeared.

12/23/12