Lifeless

This isn't my life
Or is it?
The constant hell.
I'm at war with myself.

All I see is gray
Long stretches of gray
And I want to run.

I'm screaming consciously
From deep down inside.
Anger is taking over me.

I can barely breathe
And I only want to cry,
Cry this hurt away.

I feel lost, lonely
And utterly torn.
So out of my depth..

I do not know
Nor can I figure out
Where to go from here.

Is this my life?
Because right now
It's somewhere I don't want to be..

04/26/2013