From The Bottom

I'm crying on the inside
Crying out for you.
Playing out the memories
Of what we used to do.

My heart is bleeding
Yearning for yesterdays.
Face hot, I'm breathless
There's nothing left to say.

Pillow mascara tainted,
Hugging my knees tight.
I feel ageless, broken,
Falling with the night.

Screaming from the depths
With all I have to give.
Torn from the embers
Why couldn't you have lived?

Holding on for substance
Feet high up off the ground.
That's how it feels with out you,
How it feels, I've found.

My whole world collapsed
Since you said goodbye.
This isn't your usual cliche
And I don't wonder why.

I know that you're gone
I just can't believe.
It's going to take some time
For me to let go and grieve.

But nobody knows why
And nobody understands.
I long for you to come home
Come home and take my hand.

12/20/12