Void

Certain songs remind me of you
Certian hours of the day.
A few moments of the week
And I long to run away.

I do not speak of you
I cannot, will not say the words.
They were once uttered in deep silence
Like it was something absured.

It's like a whole other ending
One I'll one day have to face.
I cannot rid the emptiness
Nor this feeling of 'out of place.

I do not remember 'normal'
That peaceful sanctuary inside.
Cannot reach the numbness
That I can hardly abide.

My very core shudders
At the remembrance of you.
You're gone, gone away
And I won't believe that it's true.

But it is true
So I have to believe.
When I think about it
I can hardly breathe..

I should have been there
To hold on to your hand.
I'll always hate myself for it
And nobody will ever understand.

But I keep you close
Even though we're far apart.
You will always be
Always be in my heart.

03/09/2013