Clarity
It's not clear.. It never was.. And even tho it has sort of been explained from the other side.. It isn't considered a real clarification. Because clarity is clearness of thought and the thoughts were unclear. It doesnt belong to me. So why play with me. Why lie. Why hurt me. I don't believe it. I can't. Maybe because what I have is stronger. And so real that I can't control it..
Control
Another word. Control. If I don't have control for just this.. does that make me weak?! If the words from the other side are true, it isnt strong, since there's control. The control is understandable. But i still believe there should be some sort of uncontrollability. So does it make me weak of heart?! If I struggle to control it when I don't have to. When I should be able to feel it freely, even if its wrong.
It's wrong.
I want;
Honesty
Truth
Clarity
Because "I deserve it.."
I want reality, open up!!
I'm quiet. In one ear, out the other. Won't tell my mother.
Never said. Never heard.
If the other side can just do that for me. It would be appreciated.
Appreciated.
Thankful. Gratifying. Satisfying. Pleasing.
And finally comprehended and understood.
