Sometimes it hurts me more
When you say things like,
"Spazz"
More than getting in trouble.
Don't you realize?
You trigger me most
You and him
You both make me feel like I'm nothing
Like I'm invisible
& when I tell you this
You don't even listen.
I'm done trying
Trying to show you I'm hurting
Because of the things you say to me
How you treat me
& you don't even realize.
I have scars on my arms
Dedicated to you and him
They wouldn't be there
If nothing was wrong here
Maybe it isn't just my head
Blowing things out of proportion
Maybe there really is an issue
Have you ever thought about that?
I haven't stopped tearing up
Since yesterday
I don't even want to live with you anymore
Isn't there a conflict there?
Don't you even care enough
To fight to make me want to stay?
I don't understand
How could someone who's supposed to love me
Care for me
& be proud of me
Make me feel so worthless
& so hopeless.
I'll go to school now
Dark circles
Puffy eyes
Redness surrounding them
Because I just can't stop breaking down
It freaking hurts
& you don't even understand
When I scream it at you
It goes in one ear
& out the other.
