I am simply an echoing voice
dying out as I bounce off each wall.
I am fading into the background
an invisible face so unseen.
I create no sound
only unheard screams that are so agonizing.
The grip of the monster inside me is just too strong to get out of.
I'm suffocating under the weight it places upon me, drowning yet I'm not in water.
So terrified that the voices inside of me won't like it when I resist urges to wreck my arm.
They won't let me be strong
I'm stuck in this cycle of self hatred & pain.
The shrieking sounds of the world around me closing in on my claustrophobic ears.
The thoughts that threaten to destroy me inside out.
I am that girl that you'd never guess is broken
the one who stays up till 3am in a blank daze
lost inside my thoughts.
I am the one that gets home
& lets everything out
from the pain of each day.
I am the girl
that would seek relief in the nature of a blade.
The silence that radiates from me
hides the truth of every feeling and secret held by my soul.
