Strength

by schmetterling   Oct 1, 2013


I'm simply hanging on
Grabbing onto anything that'll keep me up
The last thread sewn
It's about to snap under my weight.
I'm afraid this time I won't get back up
I'll be on the ground forever
Gasping to breathe
Suffocating under the death that fills me
Becoming what I'm fighting so hard not to become.
I try every single day
To be strong
For him
For me
For everyone
But sometimes it's too hard
Sometimes I just can't keep it together.
I want to scream
But I stay silent
I want to cry my eyes till they run dry
But I just sit there shaking
I want to cut until I see nothing but blood on me
But I hold back.
I just want to find stability
In my unstable mind
I'm up and down too often.
Running on 4 hours of sleep each night
Dark circles under my eyes
Red and puffy from tears
Bright red cuts on my arms
& when they ask
All I say is,
"I'm fine, really."
I can assure anyone
I am NOT fine
I am NOT okay
Don't believe me
Don't for a second think that I'm doing well
Because I go to a place
Every single day
Where I remain feeling worthless and hopeless
Then I go home
& I'm hurt even more
Battling so many things at once
The gravity of this world on my back.

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