Wow this is powerfully sad.

Firstly, I will say inner beauty is what matters so less of the awful thoughts about yourself though I cannot talk as I was bullied so often I started to believe that about myself.

We were in love... But we were just kids, and at that time I didn't believe it was possible.
Years later I go back to memories of us. Moments and feelings I've been searching for ever since we part.
Everything I did from here on was out of fear of loneliness
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Sometimes falling in love early can work but usually it doesn't but wat we need to realise is if we cannot think how we would live without another person in our life's then its definitely love though its easy I guess for us to fall out of love especially if the other person turns out to not love us. That's the balance here of finding someone you cannot live without but who can also not live without you. I do believe that our first loves will never be forgotten though, even if it was only true list it that's a part of growing older and most definitely wiser.

When I met you... You... so beautiful, and I know I'm a ugly bastard, but I was hoping that some of you... Could wash off on me.
I can't just bury my history and move on...
Nothing else mattered to me... not food... Not words...
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As I said earlier beauty is skin deep and if you don't have a beautiful inside then are you truly beautiful? I believe we should never buru our history even the bad parts because it makes us who we are today .

Great, thoughtful piece.
Em