Transportation

It's hard to know what to do
When my words just don't seem to get through to you
I pour out my heart
That can barely beat
And you look away as it it's not there
Those messages I sent
All constantly ignored
Did you know each message I send
Is deep from my heart
And it's like a phone ringing
When you don't' answer me
Telling me you're gone
And our love is dead

I'm tired of the excuses
How can you still care
When whenever I'm crying
You aren't there
And all the plans we make
I'm the only one to show up
I try to jusify your absence
But ti hurts too much to bare
And I know you don't' mean to hurt me
I would never say you do
But it tears me up inside
To know I'm here
But wonder where are you?

You say I overreact
Well maybe I do
But it's who I am
And I can't help how I feel
When my messages go unanswered
And my emails unread
My poems ignored
And your word doesn't matter
I listen to everything you say
I trusted your every word
You knew I was broken
You knew I couldn't take lies
Or deceit
Or words that have no meaning to you

Don't blame it all on me
I'm already in tears
I'm trying to stay strong
But my strength melts away
When I show up and you've disappeared
Or you say you'll be there
But never are
Tears are streaming down my face
Everything else takes my place
I spend my days trying to get close to you
Opening doors so we can communicate
Spending my money on letters you don't want
And on other technology we can speak on

How am I supposed to feel?!