It took me a lot of courage and mental power
to finally pull myself from the addicting habit of smoking
as i would always spend each day of my life
sitting around and listening to the same old songs
moaning and regretting about my life mistakes i made
always recalling the age old memories of the same old girl
as i drown my sorrows and tears with smoking
hoping something could keep me away
from ever remembering that feeling
of what it was like to be in love with someone
Each day i still have cravings to light another one up
to just drown myself down the path that became comfort
somehow the moment i paused myself in life
and started to think straight for once
my life would soon end
if i would ever continue down this path
of smoking my heart out
just to forget the broken heart
that has been haunting me years ago
when will i finally be able to quit for good?
it's feels like it's been days since i last stopped
years and months has gone by
i'm still waiting to quit myself from remembering
the girl that i once truly loved with all my heart
each day i struggle to better myself
telling myself this isn't enough
that i could become someone more
than i ever was in the past
no matter how much i improved
it never felt like i have changed at all
those past feelings are still here
i still see her face in my dreams
my heart still broken from the wound
my mind still not clear and blind
when can i finally quit this feeling?
just like how i gave-up smoking so easily
why can't i just let her go?
