I miss you
Every single waking moment of my day.
From the moment I regain consciousness
To the second before I fall asleep
You are on my mind.
I remember when you had to go
Pain flew violently through my veins
& tears welled up in my eyes
Another piece of my heart was broken off.
I miss the good mornings & good nights
The reassurance that I'll be okay
I miss everything.
All I have now are memories
Playing through 24/7
Till I can see you once again
I never know when that'll happen
I just have to hope for when it does.
You're in a different place
Living a different life
Making it the best you can
As I fall apart
Falling off the tight rope I'm walking on
& collapsing into the pavement.
How many times can I say that I miss you
& it finally sink into me
That you miss me too?
I need your voice
I crave it so badly
At night when I'm alone
Drowning in tears
Clutching my pillow
Wishing that just for one night
You could be beside me.
I always hope the best for you
That you're happy and fulfilling your purpose over there
Because I know how horrible I'm doing
& I don't want that feeling inside your soul.
I look at this bracelet on my arm
Remembering when I opened that letter
And a note "Yellowcard" read beautiful words.
You gave it to me
Because I mean that much to you
Shocking
When I've been told how meaningless I am by the world.
With this on I know that somewhere out there
You're breathing
Smiling
& giving off the same effect you have on me
To others
Oh how jealous I am of them
Because I would do anything in the world
To be in their place
When they have no clue
How lucky they are.
The smell of your cologne on pieces of paper
Written with lyrics and words
That describe your feelings for me
So pure and loving.
I can't help but hurt
When I re-read them
Knowing how much has changed
That you're in a different place now
& I'm probably in the back of your mind
Because you're focused on now
& not what's left back home.
Distance is so far
No one understands it
Till it's hitting them right in the face
The reality that you aren't here
& you won't be for years to come
Like a train crashing into me.
All I have is hope
That you mean what you say
& that I truly am that special
It's so easy to be doubtful
Because words are easily typed
& harder said.
I spend every single day
Dreaming about you
& your qualities you possess
Wishing at 11:11
Wishing on a shooting star
Hoping that one day you'll be mine
& mine only
& the distance will be obliterated.
I miss you
With every tear I've cried in your absence
With every heartbeat I've had without you
With every thought I think of with you in it.
I just hope that
You could possibly
Miss me too.
