Persistent.

by Poet on the Piano   Oct 24, 2013


One year ago, I heard pancreatic
cancer start to settle in your body.
I thought there would be answers...
like how long its stay would be;
was it just visiting your country
home for an afternoon?

But everyone told me
it could be weeks, months,
years.

Now, my surroundings
have changed. I will never understand
how nine and a half months
could open my eyes to
life's inconsistency.

Today, there were rumors
of flurries, and as the wind
caused winter coats to be
pulled from closet hangers,
I glanced outside.

All day I had been inside,
protected by fragrances,
by Raspberry champagne
and Sweater Weather and
Candy Cane kisses...
yet my mind still wandered.

I envisioned you in a peaceful
moment where the wind hushed,
and angels were bowing their
hands as they prayed you forward,
playing blonde hair like silken
strings.

A hunched shadow,
cane in hand, smile holding
sunshine when this heart
could not.

Or would you be the child
I never knew?
A spirit leaping from one
sidewalk crack to the next?

You were not a ghost.
And if I truly do see you again,
my feet will not dash, I will stand
firmly on the ground,
knowing I cannot reach your
touch as much as these tears
will write, run, flow....

I cannot see you.

-
Written 10/23/13 @ 11:45 PM
Had this weird moment at work where my mind was wandering, I was alone filling a shelf and glancing outside. I was thinking of my grandpa who passed away almost a year ago... what would happen if I saw him walk by, and people acknowledged him?

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  • 11 years ago

    by Redangelwings

    I agree with jacey this one gave me chills as well and made me tear up. It's extremely sad when poems are based on reality and its good that our mind wonders attimes. I can tell you put your heart and soul into this and it really is an eemotional peice. I loved how you described winter has a very dark time in your love or seems to be. Anyways. I think we all envision a better place for our loved one's and the memories always haunt us no matter where we go. I like how you describe this person as a "ghost". Sure you can't really see them anymore but they will live on in your heart. This is a very touching peice though. The message is very strong indeed. That even though your loved one's are no longer with you, you will always remember the good times you shared.

  • 11 years ago

    by Courageous Dreamer

    This gave me chills, just overall a really touching poem. Made me miss my grandpa too, there's moments where you get lost in your thoughts and you wish they were there. I love the questions you voiced that were going through your head, wondering what it'd be like if they passed by. I often wonder and hope mine knows where I am and what I'm doing and is proud of me for who I've become. Persistent was also a perfect title and worked well in several ways. Cancer is certainly persistent but it appears your thoughts are as well, always coming back. I absolutely hate the unknown, not knowing how long they'll be around and when they are gone all you want is for them to return. Seems you have a lot of spare moments to think while working, I feel like those are some of the best. Well done :) Missed reading.