Why is it that happiness never lasts?
You think you are lucky but you find out you're not
I came to fear my smile , my happiness , my funny moments
I now know that at every cross road I reach , hard decisions are waiting for me
I try so hard to toughen myself , I really do
To appear strong in front of everyone even those I gave my heart to
But I can't keep on holding on like this anymore
Even though I said I won't cry, yet drops of my tears are lying on the floor
I don't believe in happiness any more I never actually did
I believe in happy moments , glued in your memory , a proof of the kind of life you led
My heart makes it hard for me to go on
Mixed unknown feelings I wish if they were gone
How can I live peacefully without caring too much and destroying my own body and soul?
Maybe I need to shut off my feelings deep inside and aim for no goal
