She wandered throughout the empty house,
Her fingers readjusting perfectly placed vases
As she glanced at the clock above the stove
Once more; the phone ringing loudly.
Your words caressed my ears
Like a poison so sweet and so sharp,
There was never pain though I knew,
Deep inside the heart that beats for you,
The heartbreaking truth.
You told me you weren't coming home until late that night,
That something came up and you were needed there
You apologized in a monotone voice,
One I haven't recognized in a while.
I whisper an "okay" and hung up before you said another lie,
Just like you promised to be faithful;
How foolish was I when I believed what we had
Was enough to satisfy you?
You call me three times a week to tell me
You will be working late, each day and time the same,
I wonder who you sneak off to see,
I wonder if they are everything you crave.
My heart pounds in my chest, aching as it shatters
One last time as I drag my nails down my arm
To hold in a sob or scream, I am not sure;
It is killed slowly by the devastating suspicions.
Hours later, I hear your key in the door
As you try to creep in the house, not home, just a cold building,
Without waking what you thought was my sleep.
As you enter the living room, I stand up from the chair,
Looking you in the face and quivering
As I see the faint stains of lipstick
Lying on your flushed cheek.
I voice my suspicions, asking you to be truthful, for once,
And tell me who you have been seeing on the side;
You tell me her name, and I shudder under the pain,
Holding back tears of denial and anger that melts into
And overwhelming sadness.
I shakily asked for how long
You two were sleeping together,
You mutter for a year,
My breath stops in my throat and the rage
Overflows and leaks from my lips.
I scream at you, I scream into your silent, vacant stares,
The one I love absent from their icy cold depths,
You try to calm me, to say you're sorry and ask for forgiveness,
I stare at you in shock and disbelief, a string
Of profanities leaving as well.
Throughout the whole outburst,
My fingers twisted the wedding band
That decorated my hand; I took it off roughly
And threw it in your direction.
My words echoed in the house as I walked out the door,
Telling you that this was the end
Of forever.
