My Pain

Can anyone feel the pain that I have felt over the years,
the emotional stress, snakes in the grass, and a sense of failure,
could you walk in my shoes and relive my past,
would it be too much,

My body is carved from precious stone found on the moon,
if you look hard enough you can still see the cuts,
I've prayed for years that the good lord would take my pain away,
I wanted so badly to die,

Let me pass away in my sleep peacefully,
or give me the strength to take my own,
the pain was too much for me to handle alone,
and that's where I was in life, alone,

My pain stemmed from the inability to vent to others,
I had countless amounts of problems since I could remember,
from getting kicked out of college to never being able to run again,
all I wanted to do is find one person who would listen,

No one cared but one person and I dare not burden him with all my problems,
maybe I should have,
maybe if I did, I wouldn't be stained with death,
something that will follow me forever,

In the form of a dark cloud he follows me,
sprinkling rain whenever he can,
taking my smile away,
eliminating the silver-lining,

Red became my favorite color soon after pain arrived,
Red in my eyes and on my arms,
Red on my sheets and pillows,
Everywhere I saw red,

Rather than fight against it, I made pain my friend,
it was pain that tucked me in at night and woke me up in the morning,
telling me everything will be alright, and will be there with me through thick and thin,
and will never judge me.

Pain would never cheat on me, or say he loves me then breaks my heart,
he will never make me cry and never tell me a lie,
and will never let me suffer in my bed alone, because he will always be there,
forevermore for the rest of my life, he was my best friend,
I loved pain like Samson loved Delilah,
and miss him like the Sun misses the flower in the winter,
will we reunite for one last joyride, only time will tell,
but I know if we do, I won't be alone.