Locked away in my mind.
Feeling alone, and almost dead.
You seem to know me,
But not the real me,
You know the one that every one sees.
I'm different from the one you know,
So different that you wouldn't know,
Away in my head is where I live.
Away in my thoughts is where you'll find me.
Hoping things that I know wont happen.
Dreaming, dreams that are far from real.
I sit here with my head down,
Screaming in side from all this shit.
Not knowing what will happen next.
Not caring if I make it through.
Seeing me makes you question,
The thoughts that are in my head.
My silent gestures make you uneasy,
Because you are unsure of what is next.
You are confused because you don't know what happened.
Yesterday i was so happy,
And over night something changed.
I'm ignoring your words,
They wont ever help.
Your repeating them like some kind of spell.
Talking to me only makes things worse,
Just leave me alone until I can see.
The smoke is clearing now,
I'm starting to feel right,
I pushed you to far,
And you left my side.
I need you now,
For the last little bit,
Someone to guide me away from this shit.
When I talk now my words are happier.
When you look at my face I always smile.
My movements make you think that this was just a mistake.
You looked into my eyes,
And I looked away.
You saw something that was wrong,
Because I didn't completely change.
I was still unhappy,
Only now I could hide it.
I laughed and talked like I was the same.
Only you knew,
That nothing had changed.
