Look at me

Look at me
I'm becoming
the one thing
i swore I'd never be

after all of those years
I'm becoming my worst fear
no strength for tears
no strength for more words to hear

I've caused change
I've caused too much pain
I've taken the blame
and i can't do that again

all I'm asking
is to please kill me
I'm done pretending
to be who you want me to be

I've made up my mind
this is the last time
I've made up my mind
this is the last rhyme

I've said too much
I've away given too much trust
in just one person, all is lost
and once again, I've said too much

where should i run?
everything I've known is gone
i saw this coming all along
but i continued on

thinking maybe
if i closed my eyes tightly
it would all be okay suddenly
but it was just another dream

*write more later.. leave a comment or something please anyways