Another Night

I stare at the mirror
And watch myself tremble
As the shudders wrack my shoulders
And the tears twinkle in eyes
That are far too tired to hold
Anything but a forlorn, forgotten
Ache, one that I have hidden
Deep within the maze that is my heart.

I cannot explain why I cry harder tonight
Than I have in so long,
I have felt nothing but broken and now,
As I sit in the pale, dim light,
I let go of every agony, hurt, anger, scared
Feeling; however I still feel weighed down.
I cannot stand another night
Of this untitled, internal misery
That has no start and no end.

I must lay here and beg the moon and stars
To hear my prayers, to see me looking up
In hopes of it being taken away;

I am sorry for not being strong,
I am sorry for falling apart,
I am sorry for not standing tall
And I am so unbelievably sorry
For allowing myself to listen to the dark.