I love how you seem to make it seem so real here. The start of the poem is amazing. It seems like you have mixed feelings about this and your mind is going crazy. The middle of the poem holds so much sadness here. The details are wonderful and you show how they push you away well. You just want to be embraced and everytime you do that they push you farther and further away. You never know how to feel when being pushed away. But all you can do is stay strong and smile because if they don't want you for you then they are not worth it. Great poem overall for sure.