Goodbye Letter for Mother

by Sincuna   Nov 18, 2013


For my Mother, 2013

Let me tell the world that it was not you who caused this.
Down on both knees I will make them believe, that this was all me.

The violin plays, and keeps on playing, to the tune of your tears.
And for all these years, there has always been a narrow door opening,
yet I kept shutting it. Afraid of what's behind;
more sorrow, the endless cycle.

Please
don't punish yourself, don't be deranged,
and like you said, please don't go insane.
Avoid the piercing needles, the open flame,
avoid my dejected photographs.
Let them go, don't thirst the heavy rain.

You, who have sacrificed happiness for me.
You, who have collected sleepless nights,
putting one ear to my bedroom door
just to know if I'm still breathing. You, who would
feed me when I was too sad to eat a meal. Who
would watch me sleep just to make sure
my heart won't skip a beat.
Who'd never grow tired of begging me,
with the most sincere frown,
to try my best to be happy.

For all these years...

I am very sorry.
I have broken my promise.
But these legs were tired,
my back, so sore.
Head, cowered all over
my cold bathroom floor.

Please listen.
I do not need you to understand,
what I need is for you
to forgive me.
Forgive me,
Mother,
anchor of my soul.
And if you can't, please learn,
with all the living strength left inside you,
learn
to let me go.

# 18/11/13

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  • 10 years ago

    by Britt

    Judging comment:

    My gosh. This poem had so much emotion and power behind it.. it instantly gave me chills and midway through had me in tears. Poetically speaking it had a lot of devices that were interesting to watch for.. I particularly loved the bits of rhyme and don't know if it was intended or not, though it was strategic enough that I feel it was. The poem on an emotional level was dug so deep that it just broke my heart. I truly loved the way the writer wrote about the things the mother would do. It makes me want to know more into the back story, I am craving for more information! Gut wrenching write, one I have a hard time really digging into as it feels so personal. Well done

  • 11 years ago

    by Mahal Ko Kuya Ko

    Congratulations on the win, Kuya Justin :)) I already rated this before but I don't how to comment until now... This is just beautiful and heartfelt :))

    --- MKKK

  • 11 years ago

    by Sylvia

    This is touching and it contains a message to mothers that we have a difficult time doing and that is letting go of our children. Mothers are there when no others are, through the pain and hard times, the good times and we want to "fix" everything for our children when in reality the child just needs for us to "let them go" to live their own life, make their own mistakes. That is the greatest gift a mother can give to her child. Congratulations on the win, well deserved.

  • 11 years ago

    by Meena Krish

    Besides the anger, there lies deeper pain within this write. It calls out to every mothers' heart by a yearning child who wants nothing more then to help find comfort for the heart...touching write.

    Congrats on the win.

  • 11 years ago

    by Beautiful Soul

    Much congratulations to you. Great poem!!

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