As I sit in this crowded room
I am yet amazed at how my mind comes to you
For a second I smile, but only to myself
How can I smile after everything we went through
Am I stupid...surely not
Highly educated, just at the start of my career
Am I naive...about some things, but I have never been a sucker for love
So as I sit in this crowded room smiling
My mind flashes back and I feel a sense of calm
Then my brain catches up with my heart
And reassures me that I know better...that I am better
So am I stupid... clearly not
I have overcome obstacles much greater than this
Am I lonely...maybe a little, but not enough to want you back
I know better, therefore I am better
Better than all of the hurt, fights, and tears
Strong enough to know that some things are not meant to be
No matter how the butterflies in your stomach make you feel
Am I stupid...definitely not
Wise enough to know that you did not truly love me
Am I disappointed...of course, but not enough to let it defer me from finding real love
Butterflies can be tricky, even hazardous if you allow them to be
They allowed me to believe that this was the real thing,
That we were in this for the long haul
Funny how things can cloud your judgment
So am I stupid... obviously not
Despite this heartbreak, I have overcome my fears about love
Will I miss you...at times, but I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason
