This poem is unbelievable. I suffer from ptsd, borderline and depression so I connected with thia poem well. It's sad when people suffer and no one wants to hear them. The details are so well written here. The imagery here is stunning and puts the readerright in with the story line. Well done :)

Argh! So gutted that I missed this poem when you posted it! It is so powerful and you have really captured what it is like to suffer in this way, with these overwhelming thought and feelings, and sometimes you feel like you are the only person in the world that feels this way, like you are different from everyone else and there is something far wrong with you.

I think you have used fitting metaphors and good descriptive lines, also some good plays on words... such as:

Wrestling with my restlessness, binging on benzos, - greatly done!

Your ending is spot on with the weather contrast, and 8 hours with battling the "storm" can feel like a lifetime.

Fantastic poem.