I'm only saying this now while I'm having a spurt of confidence
I already knew this would happen from the start
I just didn't think it would happen so soon
No one did
Sure I didn't feel as bad as I do now after you kissed me the first time
And then did nothing for about a month
But it still hurt
I felt like a rebound
It made me feel horrible
But I hid it
Obviously as only the people I told knew how I felt
Then last Friday you decided to start whatever it was back up again
And when we started dating I was happy
Really happy
I think I may have actually screamed
And everything was great for those few days until Wednesday
And then I don't know what happened
I felt horrible again
And what made it worst was you wouldn't tell me what was wrong
You kept asking me if I trusted you and I did
I don't anymore
I trusted you not to hurt me but you did
I know you told me not to cry
But I did
The only thing that stopped me was talking to my friends
And it made me realize
We both may be hurting but you've lost more than I have.
I know you still want to be friends but I'm not sure I could handle seeing you after what happened
It's the same with every break up like this
You say that it won't be like the others but it will
And I've accept it...
Quicker than I probably should have but what can I say
I like things going fast
And I honestly think that it's best for me to get this all off my chest now or else I'll never say it
I don't hate you
I don't even not like you
I still do
But you need to know that you f----d up
And you've probably messed up my views on men for a while
I still want to see you
But not right now
You probably won't understand where I'm coming from
But it's just if I see you I'll remember what those few days were like
And I'll miss it
I just don't understand what changed
How can you like me and want to be with me but not?
Either you do or you don't
Pick one!
Don't just lead me on
You're no better than She is if you do
But you already have haven't you
You're a p---k...
But I still like you
I guess lose it is then huh?
