You asked so in gonna Tell you.

is this just the darkness before the sunshine. am I close to becoming who I want to.

^^ yes! that's exactly what it is . When God allows your heart to go through trials, he is bringing you that much closer to your purpose, I just read that in a book my pastor wrote.

what makes me think that it will be easy being alone in an unknown country with unknown people.

^^ yaki you have to stop thinking your desire to move is "running away", when in fact your "running toward" something. Don't you know im moving to georgia? Alone! I'm a tad nervous and I know I may go through days of missing people and hate being alone, but if you're feeling led there, like I am with Georgia, you got to do it and not feel guilty. You have to realize its a dream you've wanted for years buried deep inside you and you can't let whatever is telling you that this is a mistake or selfish or stupid, stop controlling your decision. I hate having to leave my mom, I'm concerned for her being alone too. But what am I supposed to do? When am I supposed to live my life? When she's dead? By then it may be too late...you have your own life to live, keep in contact with your mother, but don't let her. Delay you going out there and finding your purpose.

Good luck. And yes, pray more!! He will hear, He says ask and you shall receive. Maybe not right when you want it, but he's working on the plan He has for your life.

Actually I am not a gud commenter but I agree the last comment here.