You're Happy

You told me you loved me
you told me you'd stay.
You said you didn't want it
any other way.
But then my cuts became deeper
Our lies just got steeper
We both wanna die
So we said goodbye.

Its been awhile
I can see the change.
The smile on your face
is no longer fake.
Its always good to know
you're okay.

But what you don't know
is I'm not the same.
My knives tell me just a little bit further
My guns tell me to just pull the trigger.
I get so close but back out eventually
because I know if I leave...
you'll just forget about me...