2013: A Year of Psychology

I've never been more selfish in my life.

I learnt to bite on grenades
and spit out pins, dissolve bloody threads
but still stitch up my lips.

I learnt to put a deadweight on my chest
before going to sleep, anchor alcohol
into the fissures of my dreams.

Taught myself to switch off love
and switch on lust, electrocute everyone
with the conduction of my sobs.

There's no secret to depression,
no glance left to spare, as I
pierce myself with an infected needle

just to feel alive again.

31-12-2013
2:34 AM