Stuck at the back of my mind

I woke up this morning
realised she was gone
I thought -she'll be coming,
she can't live on her own-

I could feel it that day
when she decided to leave
my mind said -She won't
she is strong & has believe-

That day her best friend
as she chose to call her
talked to her openly
after such a long time

her warm hearted smile
was frozen by cold tears
when the best friend said
-the guy you love is mine

is has been like that
for almost a year now
baby you should get over it
some way or somehow-

i heard her ask
-why didn't you tell me?
you're my best friend
i would be happy too-

-didn't think of it that way-
said the "friend" -'cause...
I wouldn't have forgiven you-

I looked in her diary
there was nothing i could find
some times i could feel her
stuck at the back of my mind

I feel her screams inside
she's close, she must be!
i think it's time to go now
I have to find me