Lifeboat

Two years. The most amazing two years of my life, and it's potentially going down the drain like it means nothing.

He likes her, I love him, and he's with me.

Will I win?

He's ignored me, and pretended as if I wasn't there, and now, now he's saying that he cares.

Yet whenever we speak, his mind is in a different place, it's like he's drifted into space.

I know I should be angry and anyone else would say to leave, but when your heart wants to stay it's hard to disobey.

He's been there for me when no one was around, and now he could care less if I was down.

Sick all week and he's had other plans, since when are they more important than me, his biggest fan?

Questions with no answers invading my mind, twisting and turning, none of them keep the same time.

I can feel my heart breaking with every test.

Love should prevail, but how long 'til we get a rest?

A chance to work on what we took so long to build,

Everything can come crashing down despite the efforts to keep it afloat.

Love is like an ocean, and all we have is a life boat.

A boat built for two and not three,

He needs to pick, her or me.

Waiting around for him to choose

How much is there for me to lose?

I love him, he's my best friend

The one who should stay with me until the end.

But then he saw her and over looked me

Love is like an ocean and all we have is a lifeboat.

A boat built for two and not three.

He chose her over me.

So here I am thrown overboard

Drowning in the sea.

-TaneshaNicole 09/21/2013